To Love and Peace

It's time now . I am back to the same room ,my room , my balcony overlooking the kids making a racket despite the odd hour ( there are pluses to be living in a closed society u see) overlooking the cars getting parked from my balcony one by one filling up all the empty spaces like completing a large jigsaw puzzle .I own the objects of this room ,everything is placed as per my order or disorder whatever one may like to call it . This is my space . But this time my mind and my heart are just not at peace. I try my tested ways . I concentrate on a single visual object to digress and tame my mind but all in vain . There is something amiss. But it's odd , after the marathon of my life that I had in the last month; I got married last month;  this is not what I had imagined i would be like once it will all be over ( the craziness of the preparations ; just like most families we are also a nuclear family with limited hands)  . So I had been expecting a supreme peace of mind once I would be back to myself but strangely my surroundings are calmer than my mind today.

I relook at the events of last month .I relook at the pace at which the things were moving forward . The feeling was like flowing in a river. The more You resist the more troublesome it is to survive and the moment You let go and surrender to the current the easier it is to flow and above all you enjoy the effortlessness of the situation . So after trying to micro manage things which were in and beyond my control I did let go . And then they came all at once the fun filled moments , happy smiles ,and the worried look on my father's face that somehow he always managed to convert into a big warm smile every time I approached him with a situation at hand . The practical nature of my brother trying to balance the oddities he generally considers useless but were important for me at that time . The sleepless nights my sister had , the meticulous planning my mother and Bhabhi did . A set of friends who kept everything at hold just to be with me . I feel grateful to them and I feel grateful to the new people who have accepted me so kindly. Everything seems sorted in this department of feelings , so what is this restlessness. I am clueless.

I try another tested way I resort to a lifeline ; phone of friend . We talk for hours . Useless , ungiving , unyielding stuff. And we laugh . It makes me feel how everything in me is still the same and how I am still the very person who used to sit here for hours with a book in a hand and an adrak Wali chai next to me . I hang up and to my utmost surprise it does not go away , the restlessness that is. I just do not understand .

And then it happens , Below at some distance I see a couple walking hand in hand and it makes me miss my man. And the moment I think about him all the uneasiness and the inexplicable restlessness goes away in seconds . I don't feel the urge to call him. I don't even need to hear his voice . The fact that he is there is more than enough and it calms me down.

Cheers To Having a Good Man in your life .

Signing off
Neha Chauhan

The Rooftop

Adhar mai hai latka ye dil kuch akela hai

Jo ooper dekhun to siyaah raat hai or neeche roshni ka mela hai 

Machalti har lau ne ek saaz sa cheda hai 

Door kahin chalta sheher hai or yahan kuch sukoon ka basera hai

Aisi khamoshi mai sath ek khamosh sa dost hai 

Aisi tanhayee mai ek behad tanha sa yaar hai

Choo jati hain Mann ko  zara wo uski jhakjhorti si nazrein hain

Wo uska chup sa andaaz hai or  wo bahadur si muskaan hai

Hai kaabil e tareef wo zindagi k ehsaas batane ka uska andaz hai 

Or kabhi kabhi kuch na keh kar bhi  poora attention le le uski ye adaa kuch khaas hai 

Hain chuppi ki dor se bandhe hum ek choti si chath pe baithe

Kuch wo akela sukoon mai laga  or kuch hum shayarana nikle 

K hain to dono sath par na hulchul karne ki koi jaldi hai or na abhi savera hai 

Door kahin chalta sheher hai or yahan bass  sukoon ka basera hai 

In remembrance of the times at The peacock rooftop restaurant ( Pink city ) with Lishki Sehgal ( the friend you pack your bags with and set out of the house in search of some adventure and some meaning in life together) 

Signing off
Neha Chauhan

The Mighty Woods !!

                                                        

For how long I waited , for how long I stood,
With my sight touching the sky , Oh the mighty woods !!

Your parched trunk and your drying greens,
 I know you long for the rains as I long for my dreams.

But my dear friend ,the rains are still far,
I know that because last night I left my window ajar.

The moisture wasnt riding the wind and there was no scent,
I know you rustled your leaves last night till your stems were bent.

Something in me cried for you and brought me close,
To the lonely path and the only stairs that opens to your door.

The path was long and the journey was endless,
I stood admiring your beauty all entranced and all breathless.

Your graceful tall and your solitary stay,
I saw your patience at every turn as i meandered my way.

But dear friend don’t wait, i told you the rains are still far,
I know that because last night i left my window ajar.

For a moment i forgot the reason why i was there,
Was it to be in your grim or was it for my share,
For my friend in Solitude there is no end to your charm,
Coz a single walk in you totally handed me to my calm.

For how long i waited , for how long i stood
With my sight touching the sky , Oh you the  mighty woods !!

In remembrance of Sanjay Gandhi National Park, Mumbai

Signing Off

Neha Chauhan

In the Footsteps of HINDI

बहुत उम्मीद...

बहुत उम्मीद से एक एक चेहरे को परखते हैं
कोई खुशियों को सुलगा दे ग़मों की राख को छू कर

बदलते हर नए रुखसार पर बनाते हैं नए किस्से
कोई किस्सों को कहानी मे बदल दे हाथ से छू कर

ठहरते हैं नहीं , कभी, किसी की, मासूम गुस्ताखियों पर भी
मगर, बदलते इस ज़माने मे किसी से ठहराव चाहते हैं

हैं चाहते के वो मेरी परछाईं हो कहीं से तो
पर सवालों शक के बादल को कभी छंटने नहीं देते

संभाले घूमते हैं दिल को ले कर कैद पिंजरे में
बिना खोले करे आज़ाद कोई चाभी को हाथ न ले  कर

बहुत उम्मीद से एक एक चेहरे को परखते हैं
कोई खुशियों को सुलगा दे ग़मों की राख को छू कर

Signing Off
Neha Chauhan
10.56 PM (08.09.2015)

THE MOON(less) NIGHT !!

A scenic edge and a distant light
With the moon at its prime; Oh The lovely night !!
A willful sea that is roaring high
And the solid banks bearing the sea with their might

Standing at the corner watching the entire ordeal
With the moon enchanting the sea to hit the banks with a force so real
The sea sycophantic to follow the moon in its prowl
Hits the very rocks that define the boundary of its control

You stand amused watching this destructive romance
The surrender of the tides to the moon in command

The strength of the rocks and their silent penance

And once again it’s the resilient one that is tested even on a platform so grand

You peep into your heart and assess the tides of your soul
Ready to lose the boundaries, ready to lose control
Resilience and a prudent Reticence; You strengthen your rocks with your might
Smiling and assured you turn your back waiting for that one Night and one sight
For you know and yes you know that even a sea can be tamed on a moonless Night.

Signing Off

Neha Chauhan 

(In remembrance of Marine Drive - Mumbai)

The Walk !!

Its pitching dark as I walk the roads, stray as  dogs and lost as souls,

An uncertain wakefulness and a mind that wants to sleep,

But all I know is I am the only creed and all I know is I have got promises to keep.

 

The trees they rustle and the dogs they growl , but I move on with a single goal,

A solitude that needs to be kindled with a wisdom that is ocean's deep ,

But all I know is I am the only creed and all I know is I have got promises to keep.

 

The woods they stop me  and make yearn to have  a rest beneath the trunk,

The wind it promises to make me leap and let me have a pleasant  breathe,

A calm that I need; Some rest in the peace,

But all I know is I am the only creed and all I know is I have got promises to keep.

 

I look at the path that seems never ending ,

The woods?  The wind?; No, there is no defending,

I bid them bye and keep up the trip,

Coz  all I know is I am the only creed and all I know is I have got promises to keep.

 

 

Signing Off

Neha Chauhan

The Era of Imaptience      

Impatienc

Its not only for the wisdom words of Kaal kare so aj kar , aaj kare so ab and it’s not because NIKE said JUST DO IT , cause when have we ever listened and followed these wisdom words ?and NIKE  ? Haha seriously ?  well you know we are not intelligent enough to buy a product just because its tag line is INTELLECTUALLY better than the others. It is just for the product and experience of the store and of course our budgets,  we don’t attach literary value to shoes for that matter ,SO  it’s not for stuff like this that we are impatient every second of every single day. It’s like patience is oozing out of our bodies getting lost into the undiscovered dimensions of this universe leaving us all a little irritated every single time.                                                    .

So what is it ? Is it THE TECHNOLOGY that has made knowledge and things available on a click? The technology that presents you an opinion about everything before you yourself can sit and form an opinion of your own about it? .And that is why we just don’t. We don’t sit and give something a thought, we don’t try to recall things instead we Google it instantly. We have forgotten what self-introspection is and why would not we, when we can have multiple answers to a question as lame and personal as "how to smile ". This habit of having everything instantly is not only cradling our passive minds but is deeply reflecting in our behavior.                      .
 If you disagree, imagine how many times you refresh a page when it doesn’t load. Imagine the frustration you feel when you have to check something important but your phone’s battery dies. Imagine and I have got the best one for the last ,  imagine your disappointment when your 3G becomes 2G . Isn’t it the urgency to have an answer the moment we click something that is reflecting in our outlook bacause the moment when we can’t have something that we want we are stuck up with a sense of desperation and disappointment , more than anything else we associate it with a sense of a little failure.                                       .
Whereas, for the higher sentiments of life say, "achievement”, we do not link it with every page that opened in the exact nanosecond it was supposed to but the lower sentiments of life i.e. "failure" and " frustration" we attach them to every page that did not. This equation is so out of balance that we all end up carrying a big nagging frustration at the back of our heads all the time. So yeah is  it Technology ?, I will say it is one of the strong aspects.                                         .

I have heard many people say that parting with your gizmos for some time and embracing nature has done wonders for their "inner peace. But my Friends,think again as:-                           :-      

You gazed at stars at all their numbers and looked at the sky with all its eternity,
You immersed your soul in the flowing rivers, and with your naked eyes embraced Gods creativity.
When you came out of the forest, your peace, why did it not last?                           ?
When you have seen and felt all that was to be seen and all that was talked in the past?

The key to patience was it in something acquired or was it something as temporary as a break?

You may realize soon that it wasn’t something all great rather something innate.

So next time give “Somethings” a Little more of yourself and make it like a slow climb,

Because there are “Somethings” in life that deserve a little more of your time.

Signing Off

Neha Chauhan