Days in and days out,
A swarm of mob that can make you pout.
A desire to close your eyes to be in your oasis ,
But as you open them back ,the life is back to crisis .
You take a deep breath but even that fails your peace,
You rest your head back and shrink your crease.
Friends, almost everyone of us has been in a state of mind where we feel alone in the middle of a big crowd and all we want to do is to get away just to feel a little comfort. The extreme of this feeling is something really hard to explain but if you have ever seen a few months old baby going through physical pain but feeble enuff to cry his lungs out , and if you offer him a little warmth of your palm, you will notice that the poor kid will involuntarily try to shrink in your palm just to feel the comfort of being there.
We all have been in a stage where whenever we feel down we look upto the person who can make it go away be it be a friend or a family but that is as i said what we chose on our own , that is what is voluntary .
Being completely in a stage of self awareness , a stage where we exactly know what we want to keep us happy we actually are losing the kid in us who can still feel the undemanded comfort from unexpected or even at times from unwelcomed people only because we can not see it anymore. Being self righteous all the tym we myt end up getting what we want but it myt not be what we need at that time.
So, next time when you find yourself in a place full of unwanted people when all you want to be is to get away from any person known let alone unknown ,
Open your ears and open your eyes,
Hear them chat louder and don't consider it noise.
Look at them smile and laugh and look at them fight,
There wil b so much to observe that you will laugh and u will be in for a surprise.
When a bright smile of a stranger takes you away from yourself,
The giggles and jokes of a group of people make you feel like you are still twelve.
The self in you is forgotten and still an incredulous smile is followed,
Then you know that is not you, that is something on you that is borrowed.
Such happiness is small and at times stupid and meaningless . It might just be a weak moment of a very strong self dependent person . Its ok to be weak or to let your uncontrolled involuntary side take over you at times because after all it's as they say a little rain to make the pain go away is enough.
For years and years of being an individual i have learnt that no wonder those are the best times when happiness knocks at your doorstep but for others ,Friends , you have to reach out for it.
Dedicated to all my friends and all those people who believe:-
The richest of all is the one who tries,
Because Happiness is nothing but just a CHOICE.
Signing off
Neha Chauhan
