It feels like everyone around you is screaming and you get this strong urge to press both the hands on your ears ,but even if you do so the screams neither end nor do they get any milder .you try to wave off , you try to sleep but you just cant make it not in the 'deafening silence' of the room. you feel uneasy , you try to get comfort holding pillows and changing sides but, NO LUCK.
What is this ?? out of all the feelings a human being is programed to have , what is this feeling?
you wish you cud name it , you wish you cud put a tag on it ,you wish you cud make sure that 'this' is what you are not supposed to feel. This is what has to be overcome by a REASON.
but there is just no reason to it. Either its this nonsense suffering an ugly kaliedoscope, a mixture of so many different things or its a bewildering blank.
what is it that is f******g your mind ? why can not you reach to a single thot out of all those hullabalooh and corner it ? Why is it everything or nothing?
you feel exhausted , you feel out of breath ,you feel dizzy ,you just lie down on nythin nearby. you stare anywhere on the roof wherever your eyes fall first. you lay like you neva wanna move like that is the most comfortable state you have reached after hours of mental exhaustion .you mind goes numb and so does you body for a while. N DAT IS THE END OF A LONG BATTLE.
but the question is if mind is the one trying to evade it and the one who is suffering the most , if heart is the one that has stopped recognising any feeling watsoever then what is it that is inflicting so much pain.
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