AN AFFAIR WITH THE LIFE- THE PHOENIX

You have been there. . And just in that one hour of hell you have felt all sorts of human frailties and desperations that can ever be felt, drunk with fear and need .

NEED the most basic need of somebody who is worth to see you breaking down being there,

FEAR the most basic fear of exposing this side of yours to someone who is just not worth it merely out of desperation.

You cried your heart out . . you clutched your mobile thousand times to see if someone could reach you for diversion out of sheer luck , but having no guts to reach anybody with the fear of giving away . . Its true how resilience can be the biggest pain at times. . How the sense of righteousness can be the fuel to that pain but its amusing that to what UnGodly level that truth can still hold. . But above all it is commendable that how you can keep all this to yourself. . Believe me Friends being Dependent is the worst punishment you can give to yourself. . So you live or fairly endure that one hour with nothing but your soul beside you. .and then eventually Its like an era of all the sentiments froze upon you. It is like you have felt all there is to be felt. . There is just no feeling left that can claim your psyche and penetrate up to your heart . .no voice reaches your ears, no touch makes you feel alive. . It is like the biggest SENSE of Numbness of The Mind has taken over all your senses. .Iit takes few minutes for that stupor to break down and you know what comes out of that stupor. . A SENSE OF TRIUMPH. .It is so Godly that nothing can reach you at that moment let alone drag you to feel . . a sense that you haven’t let yourself down . . That you are not disappointed in yourself. . That you have been there for yourself. .and above Everything that YOU DESERVE TO BE YOURSLEF.

Friends,

An affair with the life doesn’t start with your first crush or relation but it starts with your first breath . a connection so deep that it penetrates the deepest corners of your physical and conscientious self. With every second passed, with every realization made you live a new BREATH. what is more to live .. if not a life .. What is more to claim.. if not YOUR life ?

Its more slender than the beauty you have eyes on , its slenderness goes with every curve that you stretch.

With every smile that you can pass and every compliment that you fetch..

With every second of brooding and every minute of perseverance..

Its there and its there adding a base to your existence..

You cannot put it aside you cannot name it..

Its one thing that is ideally and completely yours BUT ONLY IF YOU CAN CLAIM IT.

It began when Life chose you and now when you chose her..

For me towards the journey of life, this is yet another step closer..One more step closer..